My new blog is ready to go public!

Later tomorrow or this week I may do a proper introduction to my new blog or more like repeat what I am about to share with you here when I have more time.

Until then it is late, I really want to listen to music and I am too excited for another long drawn out rant about my new blog right now that I just typed up as my first blog post on my new blog.

So yes my new blog is ready to be shared! I was going to do some more work and wait to go public with my new made/found blog, but it feels ready and honestly as it grows or what have you feedback will help and I am excited to have everyone who wants to follow it grow with the process etc. So as you all know I have been thinking about it for about a month now (mentioned the possibility of it in the past before that) and recently did an update about it…The time has come and I am very happy with it.

So here it is…my newly found blog:
Discovering My Authentic Self

If you notice a follow by this blog it’s just me. Haha Give me some time to follow all my followers here as I follow hundreds of blogs from this blog. Also if you are an old or new follower and you follow my new blog I will make sure to follow you back.

The only thing I will repeat that I shared on my first blog post on ‘Discovering My Authentic Self’ is tomorrow I have a job interview. Thankfully it is in the afternoon as it is late here and I have yet to grow tired. It is for a job I really want and feel like I can handle in a store I quite like the products etc. Wish me luck! 🙂

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‘Believe’

I can’t believe
That when I breathe
That there’s something good inside of me
Just one good thing inside of me
So close to me
That memory
Of that one good thing inside of me
Just one good thing inside of me
Yeah

If I went out the back door, nobody would stop me
But, where would I go?
‘Cause I ain’t ever had a real home
So, what do I know?
So, I could keep runnin’, hide until they find me
But, what would that do?
If they could only know what I knew
What would it do?
I shoulda’ seen the writin’ on the wall
Instead, I’m left to fall
‘Cause the longer I’m away,
I’ll always stay the same
Lookin’ back, when I thought I knew it all
Instead, I’m left to fall
Did I throw it all away?

I can’t believe
That when I breathe
That there’s something good inside of me
Just one good thing inside of me
So close to me
That memory
Of that one good thing inside of me
Just one good thing inside of me
Yeah

Don’t you know, little boy, They’ll lay you to waste, man
Little do they know, every song is a lifespan
Yeah, they’ve taken one, but I’m takin’ my last chance
To hold all we know and let go with both hands
Though, don’t you know that plots are made from concrete
Right through the stone, can you hear my heart beat?
Beats through my bones, like no memory left me
Not for a second or a minute when I dream
I wanna go home, like a home that I’ll keep
You can dig six or sixty-six feet
We can live forever, still your misery missed me
Hold this song together with a bottle of whiskey
Look into the mirror, and the lines that time drew
Seen ’em painted white in the eyes that shine through
My heart beats heavy in an open chest
And, I wanna say goodbye, but there’s nobody left

I can’t believe
That when I breathe
That there’s something good inside of me
Just one good thing inside of me
So close to me
That memory
Of that one good thing inside of me
Just one good thing inside of me
Yeah

I broke it all, and I put to the test
Put your hands in mine, and feel this emptiness
There’s no beat in my chest
‘Cause there’s nothin’ left
No, it ain’t goodbye, it’s a last caress
What’s another dream?
You could hardly sleep
Can you believe bad things only happen to me?
God knows one day, you will finally see
That’s scares will heal, but we’re meant to bleed
Do you realize I would lie for you?
Please out my last breath, I would die for you
I know I’m no good, but my heart beats true
You know I’m gonna fight, though I must be scared to lose
You took me in, and I fucked it up again
And an empty promise, no, I won’t pretend
‘Cause in the end, we need someone to solve ’em
Nobody can fix me if I’m part of the problem

I can’t believe
That when I breathe
That there’s something good inside of me
Just one good thing inside of me
So close to me
That memory
Of that one good thing inside of me
Just one good thing inside of me
Yeah

Calling all wordpress community. Help?!

I knew that creating a new blog with wordpress was going to be frustrating, but I forget at times how horrible their help is. At times I get so frustrated and I am just going to be honest guys if the wordpress community was not the best out of the blogging communities (which it is) and all you amazing fellow bloggers I would ditch wordpress without question for another blog site. I have created blogs with other platforms that were much easier to follow and more focused on writing. I understand it takes time to set up a blog the way you want it and to look presentable, but I spend more time googling and using other things more than I had planned too when I joined up just to blog or write. So basically I am stuck again and don’t know how to do what I want to. So I thought who is better to ask than you guys. 🙂

I am trying to find more organized way to set up my blog and would like to be able to add pages within a page I already created. Pages are separate pages within your blog like ‘About Me, Myself And I’ or ‘Autism Resouces’ on my blog home page. Well I am extremely flustered and stuck after trying to google it a few times now. WordPress page just to add a page seems confusing itself and even outdated/ I figured out how to add a page on my own and fooling around with customization. What I have yet to figure out is how to add pages within a page. According to wordpress it is possible to do this, I just cannot find out how.

So yeah…Anyone have a clue how to add a page on an already made page on your blog?

Any suggestions or help would be appreciated. Even the first step would be more helpful than wordpress tbh.

If I cannot figure out how to do it, I will just create the pages like I did here or what have you. So it is not the end of the world, I just want to really take my time and make my new blog look presentable/organized.

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A Song For The Ladies + A Short Childhood Story

I am really going to take today and work on my new blog (well I also have to take sometime to look for a new job, but that won’t take all day) and I have high hopes it will be ready sooner than I have planned in my head.

In the meantime I would like to share another favorite Peter Gabriel song, but this time it is all about women around the world.

Since a child whenever my parents would play Solsbury Hills (A song Peter Gabriel wrote about leaving Genesis) I would dance all around the house. I was like as young as 5. Lol. It was like my jam. This was another song I would dance too with my parents actually when they’d play the Secret Live DVD. I was quite the awesome kid. xD I was a very internal, reserved quiet kid except for when it came to music. I have said it before but if my parents ever did anything right, it was pass on their passion of music to me. When they pass on(Knock on wood it isn’t anytime soon) the only thing I care about that gets willed to me is not money etc, but their huge CD collection and music dvds. (They had a record collection that suffered a flood at my aunt’s house) The love for music really only passed onto me, my brother likes music but he doesn’t like appreciate it the way I do. He is the “If I like it I will listen to it” but that is about as far as it goes. Lol. So I think I will win that fight tbh. Also it is probably the most sentimental thing to me of theirs because of the memories I have created for myself or with them is evenings spent listening to music and little things like that. A lot of my favorite memories with my parents in some way relates to music.

Blog Update (Kind of, not ready yet tbh)

As I mentioned in a few previous posts I have finally taken the leap and am in the process of opening a new blog and I just wanted to share this piece of information with all my amazing followers and supporters. However, it is not ready yet, but as soon as I am satisfied with it to share I will post my new blog URL here. That way for those of you who want to continue with me on my writing or blogging journey can join me in this new adventure (kind of.)

I want to stress this was not to monetize my blog or anything like that. It is just another wordpress url, and not an official blog/website url. (As much as I’d like to have my very own url for my blog, it is just not in the cards yet.) I didn’t create a new blog so I can gain more followers and then not follow them back or whatever. (I often notice and this is just my observations but when bloggers often move their blog over to a new one they won’t follow their old followers back for some reason.) I plan to follow a lot of the blogs I am following on here so know you will not lose me as a loyal blogger or follower I promise! Those who want to follow my new blog and continue with me as I grow as a blogger/person etc, I will make sure to continue to follow you back as well.

For those of you who may have missed my pasts updates to why I wanted to start a new blog I will explain the few reasons again. 🙂

1. I now have a main goal or well a few main goals for my blog. I now know more about wordpress and the tools. Basically, I feel like I have grown so much since a year ago when I first started blogging that a refresh felt needed.
2. My blog here is getting really unorganized and just feels where I am going in the future with my blogging adventure feels outdated.
3. I wanted a new blog name, site title, format etc and it seemed too difficult to do and I am fearful to lose content here anyways. It just kinda went hand in hand with all my other reasons tbh.
4. I want to start using more pictures and things like that to represent my blog/posts better. Would take too much work adding it to older blogs etc. I need to edit old blogs anyways and want to reshare them at my new blog home. So little things like that.
5. This will probably be like my middle/in between journey from my first blog to my very own url blog, whenever that will happen tbh.

Other personal reasons I cannot think of how to explain right now. xD Long story short I felt the change was needed as I have evolved and I do want to find more organization again.

So yeah, I just wanted to share this exciting news with you all, even though it is not even close to being ready to publish and share. Haha. My estimated time is it should be up and running by next week or hopefully sooner. Again I will share the new found blog as soon as it is ready!

Another song that will be featured on my 100 favorite songs of all time and I felt was kind of suiting for my new blog. 🙂 I am on a Peter Gabriel binge tonight.

I got no means to show identification
I got no papers show you what I am
You’ll have to take me just the way that you find me
What’s gone is gone and I do not give a damn

‘Come Talk To Me’

From the dvd/concert that made me fall more in love with Peter Gabriel’s music and a song my dad said reminded him of me as I was a teen comes another one of my favorite songs of all time.

Growing up I was a very hard person to reach out too and I think it may have been for more reasons than just my autism. I was a very quiet reserve child growing up and I still kinda am in certain ways. I also found it neat Peter Gabriel wrote this song about his daughter and the difficulties he has communicating with her.

Here is another gem that will be featured on My 100 Top/Favorite Songs Of All Time playlist. 🙂

‘The wretched desert takes it’s form,
The jackal proud and tight,
In search of you I feel my way,
Through slowest heaving night
Whatever fear invents,
I swear it make no sense
I reach out through the border fence
Come down, come talk to me
In the swirling curling storm of desire
Unuttered words hold fast
With reptile tongue the lightning lashes
Towers built to last
Darkness creeps in like a thief
And offers no relief
Why are you shaking like a leaf?
Come on, come talk to me
Ah please talk to me
Won’t you please talk to me
We can unlock this misery
Come on, come talk to me
I did not come to steal
This all is so unreal
Can’t you show me how you feel
Come on, come talk to me
Come talk to me, come talk to me
The earthly power sucks shadowed milk,
From sleepy tears undone
From nippled skin as smooth as silk,
The bugles blow as one
You lie there with your eyes half closed,
Like there’s no one there at all
There’s a tension pulling on your face
Come on, come talk to me
Won’t you please talk to me
If you’d just talk to me
Unblock this misery
If you’d only talk to me
Don’t you ever change your mind
Now your future’s so defined
And you act so deaf so blind
Come on, come talk to me
Come talk to me, come talk to me
I can imagine the moment
Breaking out through the silence
All the things that we both might say
And the heart it will not be denied
‘Til we’re both on the same damn side
All the barriers blown away
I said please talk to me
Won’t you please come talk to me
Just like it used to be
Come on, come talk to me
I did not come to steal
This all is so unreal
Can you show me how you feel now
Come on, come talk to me
Come talk to me, come talk to me
I said please talk to me
If you’d just talk to me
Unblock this misery
If you’d only talk to me
Don’t you ever change your mind
Now your future’s so defined
And you act so deaf so blind
Come on, come talk to me
Come talk to me, come talk to me’

My Favorite 100 Songs Of All Time…Coming soon!

Currently redoing my 50 favorite songs of all time list and playlist on my youtube channel. I forgot to add many of my all time favorite songs, and since I couldn’t remove many songs from the original list I am deciding to change it to 100 songs of all time. Anything to do with top favorites and music is so difficult for me because it is like my life. Haha. This is very difficult to choose when I adore over 100’s of artists and listen to like millions of songs. :/ Haha I will share my list one it is done (A written copy and the youtube playlist as well ^.^ ) You will see some will be obvious guesses and on many top lists like Bob Dylan, Pink Floyd, Fleetwood Mac, Eminem and so on but then there will be surprises like this song. 🙂